Prayers

Im gettin closer and closer to the due date of my 1st child. my doctor is a super cool guy from Africa. he knows that women's bodies are not broken and that natural birth happens all the time without complications. he told me he sees himself as just being there in the chance of an emergancy like old times and that he wishes they would give him a midwife to practice with. he told me i can bring a birth plan and that my hospital will be good to me about keeping to it. he also said that the nurses kinda freak when they get one cause they are not used to or trained for them but they are told to keep to it. now that william and i watched misty's recommened The Business of being Born william is passionate and ready to protect me while we are there. my fear is that they will go ahead and do whatever they want no matter what. william says we will sue if they put meds in me without our permission lol thats backwards eh? but it makes me happy he is so totally with me on this natural birth thing finally. i think the struggle for us women who want it now is to convince our husbands that its okay, its safe, and in the long run probably better for me. i pray that everything will be relaxed and good on the day of my first born's entrance into this world and that we can have that tight bonding experience. its so close now! the baby is so strong in there. its fun to watch my belly go up and down on its own. :) also to see and feel the little lump of a bottom make my belly lop sided haha i like to rub an pat it, drumb on it lightly. fun fun times. :)

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We are under contract!!!

i know hardly anyone reads my blog so this is a special post to those who read will be able to know long before anyone else. we are buying a house. lol its a forclosure. its a 1500sqft home with new finishes for 70,000. its a super good price we are hoping! we are hoping we are getting it for at least 30-40grand less than its worth. we will find out before closing. we are currently under contract with it. we are working on getting a usda loan because of william current status with the school district we are very likely to get this loan. its a good loan. rates will stay same, no balloon payment, nothing that made us uncomfortable with it. our principle morgage payments are 411 a month, but with insurance and taxes its 540. still thats cheaper than what we were paying in rent in Rexburg. we know there are more bills but it should still come out cheaper than renting in Vegas. i love the rural rustic-ness of overton much better than the hussle and discomfort of Vegas. i will miss having an indoor pool terribly. i will have to find other means to stay in shape, sad sad deal but thats life, i just do so much better with swimming.

Ina May's Guide to Child Birth "quotes"

"The woman who gives birth without interventions, on the other hand, is more apt to be through with the pain when her baby is born. Often, she is euphoric, buoyed on the hormones released after the birth of the perineum around the baby's head and body, a pleasant sensation for most women. Pain, if present seconds earlier, is often erased or pushed into the background. Not only that, the woman has developed powerful relaxation techniques, practiced during the most intense and memorable experience of her life. She has learned how breathing slowly and deeply can change her bodily sensations, as well as the tenor of her thoughts. She has probably developed a new respect and appreciation for her body. She has experienced the extraordinary mixture of vulnerability. power, and contact with the female principle that characterizes labor and birth." p.166
"Janelle: Giving birth was like pre- postorgasm by the second or third birth but did not contain the pulsation felt at climax. Being in tune with rushes, pushing, deeply relaxing in between was a very sexual and powerful experience but higher than orgasm, because orgasm can seem more self-gratifying and is short-lived. Giving birth is such a spiritual experience, so miraculous, you are very in tune with God and seeing the divinity in everyone that the sexual part is not that important. Your are totally immersed in selfless love and so the blissful and sexual feelings are a by-product, a gift of allowing your body to do what is knows how to do while your consciousness is very expanded." p.159