I have heard horror stories about child birth in and out of hospitals. I figure if something is going to go wrong than it will go wrong no matter where we are. as i grew up mom told more horror stories of hospitals than home midwife births. okay well no horror stories but she would shiver and just mumble on about the discomforts of a hospital. as i grew older and learned more about what having a baby entails i saw mom in a different way. she had willingly chosen to endure great motherly pain for all of us equally. honestly she is my hero . i dont know for certain if my grandmothers did too but i have the feeling both my parents mothers did as well. i want to be one of those women that is so selfless. ill be honest the main reason i want to do this is to walk in my mothers footsteps and really try to be a similar mother in as many ways as i can.
This being the first real step to motherhood i feel its got to be done right. i know that doing natural birth can bring a stronger connection and love between mother and child. i will FEEL everything and i want it that way. pain is nothing compared to the thought of missing out on the miracle of feeling my child come into this world through God, William, and me. Some new medical things are good and some are not as good. why start off motherhood in one of the laziest ways? silly. Childbirth has changed since old times. for some reason Western women go in thinking its going to be a terrible experience and so they make it into one. well i for one am going to try my best to go in thinking it will be hard yes, but that doesn't mean it has to be terrible. is climbing a mountain terrible if it burns your legs and blisters your feet? if the view is amazing and the pain made it more worth it? no. not to me. if things are easy we dont grasp the whole of what we are. I want to know i can do anything for my kid, even endure that infamously terrible pain.
